Thursday, August 14, 2008

The End is Nigh

It's Friday and thank God as they say. You know what this particular Friday means? It means the last day at work for me for four months. Today at 5 o'clock I leave the office behind and enter the world of the impoverished unemployed. Fool according to my Dad (did I mention before that I love you Pa?), fearless according to others. Do I feel at all nervous or concerned? No, not really. How about excited? The question I am asked a lot lately is am I excited. Well let me think. Actually no. I am too busy to be excited and besides I tend to launch into the unknown with an open mind, a blank page on which to write...few expectations. That way I am open to opportunities as they present and also to surprises. Expect the unexpected and be surprised and delighted. Or maybe it is just that my mind is enough like a cat or a child that I am unable to extrapolate into the future to see the consequences to feel afraid. Don't worry Mum I promise not to speak to any strangers whatsoever while I'm in Melbourne. I will ask first to see their crudentials and request two referees before entering into any form of conversation.

Actually I know two people in Melbourne and have a friend of my sister's to stay with for the first little while until I find my feet. It is also surprising how many people have said to me 'you should get in touch with so-and-so while you're there. They're a kiwi living in Oz'. Kiwi solidarity! I appreciate the offer everyone, really I do but at this rate I am in danger of spending four months in Melbourne socialising with Kiwis! I might as well just stay at home. I will keep the friends of friends list with me just in case but part of why I am off to do this in a city other than my home is to separate myself from that six degree thing that happens in a small town like Auckland. There are a lot of pleasant distractions when you know lots of people but it is not very helpful when it comes to knuckling down to the business of writing.

T'other thing that I have been hearing a bit too much for my liking is that people seem to think I won't be coming back. Hmmm, what am I supposed to understand by that? You don't want me back? Heaven forbid, I know that you all love me really but why do people think that just because I feel the need to take a wee break from my hometown, that it means I don't love it anymore. Ballgowns aren't much use in small towns, my friend Mr Greg Johnson wrote but ballgowns are useful anywhere on the right person. I love Auckland, it is my home, where my heart is because Auckland (apart from being crappy in the winter) is a beautiful places and it contains all the people I love the most in this world. Friends, family, fond memories, of course I will return to the town that has captured my heart but as they say, absence makes the heart etc...and rekindles the love. Set me free Auckland and when I return to you it will be with affection afresh and a heart better placed. We all need to take a break from time to time to step back and appreciate how good life is.

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